Its one of those days...

How can yesterday have been so fun with going to cafe du monde with a bunch of my friends and walking around the quarter and bourbon..to this

I got in late last night so I was tired but didn't complain because its my job so why complain and be there. I worked for 7 hours today painting and making posters so I'm pretty tired.. Well I got to go home for about 30 minutes then back to practice in our band...And we are all doing great played a few songs and then we get to the new song and my brother starts yelling at me your not trying hard enough when Mr. Brian even said it was going to be hard...well I left I just couldn't take it so I left.

I'm so tired of all of this I have that annoying feeling and I don't know why..I just can't wait till july so I can leave for college..

I need to get away to bad everytime I take a trip it's with the people I deal with at home so it doesn't help my problem. I need a break from everyone

I'm trapped...


In relation to boys because I always have something about them well I'm chilling on them.


I do feel alone and I don't like that....but as you can tell yess it is just ONE OF THOSE DAYS!

sorry this is a downer

peace ky

GRADUATING!!

so tonight is graduation we had rehersal this morning and it was actually pretty fun...and as always I'm the one to get called out on dress code which was wack lol.
But I'm so happy to be done with high school.

In other news I got on skype last night to talk to my friend robert yea...it was interesting he was trying to get me to tell him i think he's attractive...but I'm not attracted to him lol I really just find myself only being attracted to black guys and an occasional white guy.

Well aaron update:
I think I am finally retracting on that relationship...I don't really want that I was just curious and so he wanted stuff and i wanted to use him. We will prob just stay friends because we are really great at that and its working. plus his standards sexually are just too high for me I am a newbe and he expects to much. And plus I want to know that the guy really likes me or loves me I think thats how it should be..

So I'm chilling on guys right now when I don't look is when I get the best so thats what I'm gonna do.

Well summer is basically here and there fore summer staff for the youth is getting together now..I love my job working with junior highers is great.

First thing I have to do is teach the dance class which should be awesome I pretty excited I'm doing alot of different things:

krumping
step
hip-hop
breaking
and a throw back day it should be sweet

motto of the day;

some say silence is golden...but i choose noise

peace ky

a few random things

Hung out with Jacolby again it was fun his cousin was there, he's pretty cool his name is teezy.


More important news well the CAVS lost to the celtics talk about upset...Lebron James is the best to me, and I disagree with everyone it is not all lebron's fault he is not the only person on the team. Sure he might be the only good player on the team, but basketball is a team sport. Every player has a bad game ok....Oh and Kobe is sooo not better he just has a team behind him. But I'm not hating Kobe is a good player.

As of now though I'm cheering for the celtics.

Annnd now the Aaron update:

Aaron updates are finally fun again lol.. the waiting game is over thank goodness.
well we are back into the kind of relationship we had before all this crap, which is nice. Do I trust him heell no lol but knowing he digs me is a nice feeling. I feel like this time around I will be able to be myself and not shy to the point where I wasn't myself.

But he text me yesterday and is coming to my grad party so thats a good sign.


oh and shout out to CHIOMA for following my blog thank you hopefully you like it.. :))

motto of the day:

so you can't stop the waves...well then learn to surf

peace ky

about to lose it

I can't even get into enjoying the no strings attached relationship I have with Jacolby because of Aaron

why do things always come together too late I hate it.

Jacolby surprisingly says he only wants to hook up with me... I think its bull I refuse to believe it. Plus every time I'm with him I just think of Aaron

hahaha this boy has got me hooked college needs to come faster

I also am just annoyed I feel trapped in my life right now stuck doing the same routine....I'm about to explode it's so frustrating.
I'm waiting for my life to begin and I'm stuck in a freaking rut right now..

I'm so ready to be away from home for a little while. And start over really I don't have to fight old demons and can just relax..

Well God has a plan and I have rebelled out now for a little while and i need to stop before I am hurt again...funny thing I never seem to learn my lesson the first time or second time with this lesson.

well I'm just rambling now.....if any of ya'll have had this feeling and read this feel free to write ur experiences.

no motto of the day today

peace ky

LOTS OF THINGS

Well i haven't posted in a while alot has happened actually wel the summer staff got together and swam and hungout in the sun.. one of our leaders Steve left yesterday to go help the oil spill.

My mom is in Europe she has been since last Wednesday it has been nice having her away because I know she is having so much fun..

I finally hung out with Jacolby it was actually enjoyable..I met a few of his cousins they were fun..well two of them were totally not there but it was funny. We were all laughing and hanging out they started freestyling it was great. I love that kind of enviornment..its so much fun. To be honest I really wasn't expecting to have that much fun..


Its still weird hanging out with other guys that aren't aaron....and that brings us to the aaron update lol:

he text me yesterday and we started playing around I was like oh u no u like me he goes you know u like me!
I was like yea
he was like why do you have to admit it now
I explained that it seemed like he was dun with me so i didn't want to look retarded
and he was like well your leaving
I said exactly why I didn't try
he said it sucks
...soooo basically we like each other but are afraid to date because of the circumstances

well he said we willl definetly hang out again which is good

Why now do I have to be leaving

meanwhile I got Jacolby telling me he wants me and only me lol I'm like your a sophmore ...ageee matters to me
Its just weird because I do like Aaron alot.

motto of the day:

you have to be sore to soar

peace ky

SCHOOLS OUT FOREVER

high school is over forever I'm so happy but sad I'm going to miss everyone.

The state track meet was off the chain, but long as hell and hotttt..

well Jacolby is actually a cool friend. He makes me laugh.


Aaron update:
I finally wrote to him cause I figured one day of school left whats to loose..so I asked him why he was so distant.

he actualy wrote back and he was sry he has just been stressed lately and I'm still his little dumb blonde I laughed.

Ok other than that life has been fun...all of you should see Iron man 2 it is off the chain!!!

peace ky

Weird Feeling

soo...

tomorrow is my last day of high school and I'm kinda sad for real..I'm going to miss alot of those people.

On another note State is thursday I'm am leaving early with Coach Wendt and Sierra at 10.

I'm really excited it should be fun especially because my best friend goes to LSU and that is where the meet is.

Well aaron update he is talking a little bit to me again at school to bad i have ONE DAMN DAY left lol.. He is a character and he's got me. But at least if things don't work out I dont have to see him again really...Too bad I want to

well i hope this is more exciting I feel like these are boring But summer is almost here and should be more entertaining.

motto of the day:

You were made to soar, to crash to earth, then to rise and soar again

peace ky

Whats new

Well I have three days of school left. which is pretty ballin' but weird at the same time I think I might actually miss high schoool. Even though its a physical and emotional grind.

well everytime one of my friends sees me in the hall at school they go you can call me jay coot hahaha. because the guy who was trying to get at me goes my name is jacolby cooper but u can call me jay coot lol we cracked up.

State is on thrusday the seniors are trying to get permission to drive up because we don't have school. So we could go right after our exams. But we got to get coach Landrum the AD to go for it.

News about aaron well its the same stuff. We will start having a good conversation and he will just stop lol its random....it's like he gets lost in talking to me that he realizes half way through the convo that hes mad at me ha....imaturity.

Well thats pretty much it right now not very exciting but oh well