TRACK MEETS

Ahh track meets they are so entertaining... We had the regional track meet yeasterday and I was there to stretch out anyone who needed it and do rub downs. I actually was pretty busy. The girls on my team like to try and holla at any cute guy they see walking by so when my friend walks up and asks this guy whos like buff and loooks like college and he said he was a freshman I couldn't help but bust out laughing lol. it was hilarious.

mean while this john curtis boy is trying to holla at me it was ridicuouls my friends thought it was funny so they told him my name and let him text homself from my frone I was like stop guyyys...lol this boy is a freshman I was like we gotta be friends thats all.


Ahh good news I think aaron might have been a little jealous becasue I did catch him looking at me and stuff...

It sucks so bad that that you can never get the attention of the guys you actually want lol..

speak of the devil this john curtis boy is texting me in class right now lol.

peace ky

STRANGE EVENTS

There has been a few things that have happened lately that have blown my mind.

1. Two weeks ago a guy named ryan that I was really close with and almost dated, but to be honest I still don't know what happened everything just spun out of control, and we arent friends anymore. I was really hurt he has caused me to not communicate very well cause he would manipulate everything I did or said to the point where I didn't even know what I was saying anymore...Well anyways he text me and was like I just want to say I'm sorry for everything I did to you i didn't know how bad I was hurting you and I won't forgive myself and he is thinking bout me..and all this stuff. I was liike wooaahh unexpected I told him no hard feelings and that put it in the past and hopefully we can be friends in college, because we are going to be at the same college. Down side his girlfriend hates me and hasn't even met me.

Well he ended up calling me and talking to me for a long time on the phone it was kind of nice because I do miss him.

2. Then this morning my ex boyfrind from freshman year writes to me saying sorry and that since me he hasn't had a good relationship and i was the best girl he had..and he isn't asking for me back that would be too much, but he just wants to hang out again...it's funny how things come back to you.. I don't know what god is doing but he is doing something.

anyways these two things have really blown my mind

motto of the day:

slow and steady wins the race

peace ky

p.s.- if anything extremely exciting happens today I will post it but I doubt it

eerrrghhh

I haven't posted in a bit which is weird today is extremely annoying. my mom is on my butt like nobodys business which is so aggravating. I can't wait till i get out of here.

Not to mention the new news is that my ex boyfriend is now living with us...don't get me wrong we are best friends but Now that he is living with us I am so annoyed with him.

note to girls don't bring a guy into your family unless you want them to stay there or you might end up with a situation like mine.

Jeez I actually feel better just writing that out.


well this is my last week of school and that is exciting, the juniors are really going to miss us seniors.

My mom then went off on me about how because I didn't say hi to bryce ( the ex) when I passed by him at school that makes me come off as heartless and its just not nice...I'm like I have seen him all day at school and I live with him...she continues by saying that she sees me do it all the time and thats why I will never have good friendships...What!??!? she never sees me at school with my friends and I just didn't think about saying hey to bryce so all my relationships won't last....hmmmm wow

ahhh I just want to talk to aaron he makes me laugh....  :)


motto of the day:

"great ball isn't it....impossible to dodge." -mr. magorium

INTERESTING

Today was interesting I talked to a girl last block that I never talk to her name is manuela and she is really cool.. I talked about like everything with her and she told me alot about herself which was cool.

I find that people who say they don't open up alot always open up to me the first time they talk to me.. It's cool but alot of responsibility.

So yes, I know ya'll couldn't wait lol.....the aaron update :)

I think things are getting a little better my guy friends have officially told e that the reason that he probably acted like this in the first place is that I called him out on something he really does.

They also said I'm not like every girl..(which was weird hering that from my guy friends cause idk we are friends)...and that I shouldn't settle for that. They told me what I said I should do which is just wait for him to talk to me because he will come back.

And today lol he winked at me and sat around me at lunch. Which is progress not a lot but hey I will take it.

I have noticed that boys actually take a longer time to get over stuff like this than girls...girls can just throw this stuff in the past after they have talked it out but guys hold on to it..hmmm

motto of the day:

"what am i doin', what am i doin'...oh yeah thats right i'm doing me, i'm doing me, i'm livig life right now.." -drake

peace ky

p.s.- so i wanna show ya'll stuff about my life through pictures so ask what u want to know about me and I will see if I can show it through a pic :)

Does anybody feel me??

So I am pretty bored with life right now there is no excitement...

-sports are done for me

-love life is at a flat line because im waiting for college

-and senior year is ending

I can't wait to be in college..no I can't wait for summer

I'm teaching a hip-hop and breaking class to k-6 graders so that will be fun and all summer I will be a jr. high youth leader I'm pumped

plus I'm confused about aaron which is gay

yea today is blehhh

peace ky

no not this!!!

So yea.... I'm having a really hard time not getting emotionally attached to aaron he acting all weird lol. Big surprise I know haha. I am just confused and need some advice for real.

Other than that the district track meet was today and I made finals in long jump and triple but than lost by an inch how retarded is that.....it sucked everyone is going to regionals without me. Tomorrow is the sports banquet that should be fun.


man this aaron thing has really got me tripping out mmm I need to get his attention back but how? whatevs

motto of the day:

  Ima just do me


peace ky

bloggers i need your help one more time.

I'm still working on my research paper about how with popularity comes power. the question I have for ya'll this time is how do teen movies affect your outlook on how popularity should work?

i hope that makes since....

and thank you so much guys :)

Post-prom

heres the whole group
this is my date phil
seniors whoop whoop
we were trying to make the classic laughing pose from prom magazine lol

So I'm pretty much exhausted from last night. Prom was awesome with phil he is such a good dancer he would start dancing around me and then everyone one would start staring. Afterwards was fun too, hung out with aaron. i promised pictures so here they are....

PROM

Let the festivities begin I am officialy starting to get ready sometimes being white is a good thing cause you dont have to spend all day getting ready. My bro is picking my date up at 6 and I am going to meet them at my cousins I will definetly post pictures tomorrow hopefully.

It's gonna be ballin' that is really all i can say.

motto of the day:

You only have one life to live with no regrets

peace ky

frizziidayy

Man I love fridays today was pretty lame though more than half the senior class and junior class didn't show up because most of them are getting weave or something put in. finally figured out what I'm doing after prom which is going to see death at a funeral with aaron and hitting up ihop after..

But that might change because I went to junior ring ceremony to support my bro, and aaron told him he might be able to go to the cabin with me so that would be pretty  ballin'. either way we will be chilling and happy.

Ring ceremony was ballin' I'm proud of my senior class for crashing it in their cars I wish I could have but I was supporting my bro. the things that happened we saw a baby that looked like a howler monkey and then got to see one of the juniors walk really funny in her heels.. and caused chaos in the back row it was entertaining.

well motto of the day:

Even if you are on the right track, you will get run over if you just sit there.




peace ky

:) YESSSS

Man today was ballin' so I played my last softball game and and got to play all three of my positions center field, first base, and pitcher. I don't know if any of you do this but as a senior it like your final lap around the bases and u slide into home so that was exciting..

Also the other great thing that happened today was aaron and me are finally back to normal at school and in general lol his good friend Tony who is also my friend gave me the two thumbs up when aaron yelled hey sexy across the quad hahaha guys I love them..

I also cleared the rumors about me flowing around school of me being some kind of sexual dynamo because they aren't true...sex I'm sad to say is an area I'm very shy about. Kissing I got that down pat lol never been told I'm bad at that.

Well today was ballin' I dug it.

motto of the day is more of something to think about:

girls will do the physical to get the emotional...boys do the emotional to get the physical

peace ky

hey bloggers i need your help

I'm doing a reasearch paper on teen movies about how your ranking in popularity determines how much power you have in high school.. so if ya'll have any experinces with this please reply and tell me about them so i can use them as secondary sources.

thanks guys.


peace ky

relaxation... :)

Today was pretty legit

softball is almost over and I'm jumping for track in the district meet, I love sports they have the power of freeing your mind of everything and letting go.

Went to VS today and got my lingerie its cute got some seamless stuff to wear under my fitted dress. I definetly love my friends they are so crazy we are all in step club together and today at lunch we spent our time talking about small chest.. they are obsessed with the fact that I'm white and have a butt lol they crazzzy.

so today was good kinda boring but good :)

peacce ky

finally peace

Finally me and aaron are straight almost went down hill last night when he called me and then hung up on me. I had to call him back and truely explain myself, then we spent the next two hours just talking on the phone. lol!! He was like that is something else I called you to fuss at you and now we are just talking like nothing happened....it was nice :)

So it is definetly prom season if no one could tell..I'm actually excited for prom my dress is off the chain I will post a picture later.

School was lame today they sat the senior class down and talked to us about date rape and alcohol poisoning in college..basically moral of the story is that you shouldn't party with people you don't know....Thank you administration for the obvious.

A note to the guys out there don't ask girls to send you pictures off them most of us don't like it...And don't ask us to send you pictures of our lingerie that we bought with friends to make ourselves feel cool as freshman because first of all if they want you to see their lingerie they would want it on their body. crazy male testosterone.. but I love my guys

speaking of lingerie I'm digging black right now so I might go get some tomorrow to bad everywhere u go to get nice lingerie it's a butt load.

OOO let me clear something up I'm not into sex I just like sexy underwear...and this is a random post I think i am too tired.

motto of the day:

If your not living on the edge..your just wasting space

peace ky

the ice is broken.

finally there is talking between me and aaron. apparently last night when he asked me to meet him at the movies my phone decided to be gay n not send me that text till this morning.. well tomorrow at school hopefully all goes well.

I finished my song here it is:

TWISTED REALITY

From the start is the typical high school scene

Clusters of personalty that walk to a normal routine

You got your jocks, arts, norms, and occasional outcast

Within the rush theres the want for something that will outlast.

The search for that is so hard on the heart

the roller coaster of emotions that causes many to dart

To unveil yourself is rare and usually will hurt

The relationship that was built on trust begins to crumble to dust

PRE-CHORUS:

Their slipping away into the game

They don’t know the truth their all the same

i want to catch their breath

let the layers unwind

Who knew being real would twist the mind

CHORUS:

Why can’t we take a second to stop this game

it not working its just leaves us an empty frame

we got to stand up and be strong this can't go on

we cant sit around for long this cant go on

BRIDGE:

no ones alone in breaking the mold

it just takes one to be so bold

our personalities dont belong where we reside

it wont be long till we cant run and hide

hopefully ya'll like it...more importantly hopefully my songwriting teacher likes it. lol

peace ky

ahhh

soo I'm pretty much exhausted didn't sleep last night and have a major stomach ache. Me and Aaron still haven't resolved but he did pick up his phone he was just at french quarter festival and couldn't talk. So I'm off to church our band plays today I'm the bass player its fun.

Yesterday night within all the stress I wrote a new song its almost finished just needs a bridge I will post it when its done. It's about the high school experience issshhh.

thank you!!! to the new people following i appreciate it. Well I will post later today when hopefully aaron talks to me.

peace ky

screw up

so I started today pretty bad so far...

This is my friend aaron and I seriously messed up by accusing him of well.....basically he's the guy from the blog below. So you can guess from there. Well he didn't take it that well obviously, but the problem is I believe him because he was legitly mad.

I feel like I screwed over myself and could be pushing away a guy that actually likes me. I basically dug my own grave. I was scared of him a little because its scary to have a guy who is telling you all the same stuff that a player smoothed you over with. I told him that he just got mad and said to not take guys from my past and accuse him of the same actions, which is true.

Here is one of the things you fellow bloggers should know I am the kind of person that when I get into a fight with a friend it really rips me apart inside because i care a lot about him. So the fact that he is giving me the silent treatment right now is KILLING me!!

So through this whole ordeal so far I have realized number one that yeah it is a possibility that I like aaron and second that I'm finding ways to push him away, so I don't have to commit emotionally. So how do I tell him that? I have ticked him off enough already. well I'm going to wait till tonight if he hasn't texted me back I will call him, hopefully thats a good idea.

Bottom line I can be really retarded. Does anybody have advice??

quote for today...

That wolf might cry wolf, but you still have to see that wolf's teeth.

peace ky  

craziness

hello to whoever reads,

First off my name is kylie I'm new to the blogging community but I thought it would be a good way to get advice and let go..so I'm ready to get right to it.

Today at school I found out that the guy I'm talking to... not going to lie messing around with is hooking up with other girls. The messed up part I feel bad for the other girl because I'm about to leave for college and don't want to have the emotional commitment before I leave. This girl is telling me all the stuff he does to her and with her and I'm like he does the same. The difference I actually was happy to know I was right about this guy because I dated a guy that cheated on me super bad with my best friend and told me all the same stuff as this guy. So right off the bat I was like I'm either going to teach him a lesson(we all know thats impossible with teenage guys though) or have fun, so I'm doing both. Guys are what I do that sounds weird but I have never had strong friends that are girls, I have grown up around guys I know a lot about them.

Is it wrong of me to want to turn the tables on this guy before I leave for college because this other girl he is talking to deserves a chance and he needs to know he cant get everything without commitment...Don't get me wrong I know I'm basically ramming my head into a wall but my guy friends love me for what I show them and he really is just a friend..

so whats the motto of the day....

Don't be to sure that your playing someone because that someone could know your cards and be playing yours and theirs.

peace ky